Of course, you might've seen this. We have a consult with a neurologist at the end of May.
Plus, last week at SpiderMonkey and CuriousGeorge's doc's appointment, we had one of the RN's. She checked SpiderMonkey's history and saw he was hospitalized for croup over New Year's. Then she listened to his heart and asked if I'd ever been told he has a murmur. Yes, I had.
I think the first time someone mentioned it was at a sick appointment (so we had a different doc) when I took SpiderMonkey in for a fever around 9months. The doc at that time said that it could just be that the fever was making is blood flow faster and so he was hearing it then, plus it was before I had the Twinkies and the two bigs were at school, so the room was exceptionally more quiet than usual. He chalked it up to "he's a healthy boy, obviously growing well, so it will probably work itself out." Phew.
Well, last week, the RN asked if they did a workup of his heart when he was hospitalized for croup. No, they hadn't. She listened longer and said that if he was 3 or 6 months old and she was hearing this, being that he's so big and healthy, she would've said, eh, it'll work itself out, but she said that now that he's pushing two years old and it's still there, she said, "that makes me say Hmmmm..." Holy Freakout. Not in the office obviously, but later. Anyhow, she did say that it could be 'functional' or 'innocent,' I think were her words, but she'd like to see a workup on it now.
So that is tomorrow's doctor appointment. An ultrasound on SpiderMonkey's heart. Whoa. I haven't even really teared up about it until I just typed that sentence. I have a good idea that it will be as she said, functional. That's where my mind is right now. I've avoided looking up things on the internet yet, but I feel that coming as soon as I finish typing this. It's kind of my thing.
When the kids are sick with an unknown illness, some people pray or cry or hang onto the doctor's every word. I research. I guess I'm always looking for the positivity of the situations or to find out what is really going on, like when one of the Twinkeys had Pyloric Stenosis and they told me for two weeks it was just acid reflux, as every meal hit the wall behind me.
*Big sigh* I feel better just having typed that. I haven't told family members yet, because really, I don't know anything. My dad and sister live hundreds of miles away and my mom and I are going through some things. I just didn't want them all freaking out for this past week like I was, not knowing anything. Damned if I do and damned if I don't in this case.
I'm still positive about tomorrow. Obviously he would be looking sickly if something major was wrong.